Thursday, March 03, 2011

When we are afraid, we rationalize.

Today is 3/15/12...This is a post that I began while teaching at (insert former job name here)...I am so glad to be free of that job!

This is from 2 years ago...

I'm in a bad situation. Certain circumstances in my life are not exactly ideal, so needless to say there are reasons that I need to be where I am in my life but also the fear of doing what I should, want and know to be true keeps me in the less than ideal light.

There are days when it's not so bad. When these circumstances are more tolerable and those are the days that I rationalize, "Look, it's getting better. There's no need to change what I'm doing. It'll be fine." I catch my reflection smiling back at me in the mirror as I put on a happy face to start my day. But yesterday...yesterday was different. As I smiled to myself while silently trying to convince myself to go on in this manner, a memory flashed through my mind. It was a movie clip of George Bailey shaking hands with Mr. Potter over the 'new job' Mr. Potter offered Bailey in return for leaving the Bailey Building and Loan. As George releases his hand from Mr. Potter's, a look of self disgust washes over George. He can't do this! It's wrong. Mr. Potter is an awful man and he has just agreed to think over his proposal--a proposal schemed by a devil of a man. George retracts all his agreements

You sit around here and you spin your little webs and you think the whole world revolves around you and your money. Well it doesn't, Mr. Potter. In the whole vast configuration of things I'd say you were nothing but a scurvy little spider.

It's A Wonderful Life

Skip to 2:19. The scene begins there and ends around 7:26.

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